Day 4: Mood Stabilisation

The use of white noise in noise reduction has been a success.

Now comes the point in which the novelty of the experiment wears off, and the absolute sickness and anger and revolt of the everpresent BRAIN FOG drives every part of me into fuming anger at the world, and whatever’s wrong with my stupid biology, and with society for not taking sleep science seriously and LETTING PEOPLE SLEEP. I would GLADLY lose a leg in exchange for decent energy. It is hell not being able to think.

My homeostatic sleepiness is doing me a solid and becoming borederline unstoppable with fatigue at around 2200, which is perfect and what is wanted. BUT my circadian is still much later, so even though I have my planned activities which are supposed to be sleep inducing (like typing or supermemo reps) I’m so racked with fatigue I can barely get myself to stand up and open the laptop, even though when I do try to sleep it doesn’t work!

Funnily enough, when I was too angry to stay in bed and went to do something, I managed to restrain myself from checking email or using the internet, but stayed up organising my Obsidian Wiki (it was really fun).

I think the excitement of watching netflix shows in bed is contributing. I’ll move closer to Woz’s ideals and start only listening to podcasts in my bed with my bluetooth sleep mask in darkness, no more netflix.

And I’ll try not to even get into bed until at least 2300. If I want to watch netflix I’ll do it on the other side of my brothers bed, and if I want to type or do reps I’ll use the computer desk.

My back has been aching for weeks and I think the culprit is lying over to one side while watching netflix. So will try to lie on back.

Am considering doing morning supermemo reps in the garden for the sunlight. Perhaps the 15 minutes during excercise isn’t enough.

Merry Christmas.

5 thoughts on “Day 4: Mood Stabilisation

  1. > If you have a garden spend your entire morning there! I did that when I was in parent’s place for a while and it was great, lots of fun sitting outside (though ergonomics can be a bit worse).

    Ah I would but evenign after just the morning run my hands are so cold usage of the keyboard is difficult.Though I have been going on walks after runs

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  2. Happy to see that white noise strategy worked!
    If you’re looking for a podcast you could try the golden nuggets podcast:
    https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9PA26yTZOsJB_wHJXN6sKg
    or text to speech (edge has it built in) to listen to some articles.

    I wonder what content Woz goes with? I’ve been wanting to have more passive time but I haven’t been able to decide good queue of shows.

    If you have a garden spend your entire morning there! I did that when I was in parent’s place for a while and it was great, lots of fun sitting outside (though ergonomics can be a bit worse).

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